Thursday, August 12, 2010
I have been feeling pretty good. Getting used to the hunger feeling. I have been a bad girl and moved myself up to some mushies the past couple of days like mashed potatoes, refried beans and today I had some mashed cauliflower from my work cafeteria. It was pretty good and went down ok..other than that though been sticking with soup and protein shakes. I can start mushies in just 2 more days. I am finding it hard to start walking by the time i get home from work I am soo flippin tired and weak, i make myself walk our dog up to the park and my husband throws the ball to him but that is about as far as I can push myself, its about 2 blocks. I am going to start walking around my work building tomorrow and bringing my sneakers. I gotta get some more walking in!!! The scale hasn't moved all weak and even though I know I am being hard on myself considering I still lost 18lbs in 2 weeks but it is still scary..I am barly eating anything guess it all hits at once than levels out. I just cant wait to get back down to like 240 or 230 again it feels like it could take forever though but I think once I get there I will be ok with losing it more slowly. I am going to measure myself tonight because I forgot to do that before I got surgery. Maybe I am losing some inches:) I do feel like I am on a very strict diet but I guess I really am...I went into my bosses office today and she was muching on some cheese nips and I wanted some so bad, I kept thinking will I ever be able to sit at my desk and just much again? I guess probably not unless its something really healthy and Im really hungry. So things like that kinda scare me a little but than I think again how life changing this really is and how I owe it to myself to commit to this. Oh yea on another note!! I get the hospital bill yesterday and they said I still owe them $926!! That was one of my biggest fears that I would get some extra bill for socks or whatever after I paid all that money already, after freaking out all evening last night and getting myself all worked up they called this morning and said not to worry about it that they would work it out and I dont owe anything. You bet I saved that message!! I need to start posting some pics on here and I will...as I lose weight I need to keep track of the way I look!