Bandster Hell!!

Iv read about it and saw the million posts on it but I was hoping it wouldn't happen to me....Bandster hell!!.. but it did:( I feel like I dont really even have the band..I feel like I eat anything! I have controlled myself though and to be honest I do find once I eat about a cup of food, good substance food and if I chew it really good and eat slow I feel full and content so I guess I do still have some restriction cause I am pretty sure I could eat much more than that before the band. So Friday I started soft food. I havnt been pureeing like I think I am suppose to I am just eating soft food and chewing really well. Today I woke up and had 1 scrambled egg with 1 diced up piece of turkey sausage and a sprinkle of fat free cheese I ate very slow and chewed well and it went down fine and I was full after eating it, which is good but as the day goes on I get hungrier and hungrier I did get 40 oz of water in today and made myself keep drinking. Most of the rest of the day I just picked around at food I didnt sit down and eat lunch like I should have I had like a bite of grounded chicken salad, a spoonful of my son's mac and cheese and a piece of lunch meat. I put a pot roast in the crockpot this morning with some carrots, celery and potatoes diced up really small and scooped out about a half a cup of that around and ate that..and it went down good kinda heavy though and I really need to stay away from the carbs! the doctor said I can have potatoes and stuff but it always makes me feel so heavy after I eat it. I had a little more pot roast in the evening and than Im done! so I still dont think I ate that much but I need to stop picking around at food even if its healthy and eat my 3 meals. Its also hard now that I am not suppose to drink 30 minutes before a meal and an hour after...its hard to work that and get your liquids in not to mention Im thirsty when I eat. working on breaking that habit. I really want a glass of wine tonight and been craving a nice sweet white wine but Im not suppose to have alcohol for a few months guess because you need to get your nutrients in first. I am a little concerned that I have 3 more weeks until I get a fill! Iv decided I need to treat this like a diet so I went and spent freakin 350 dollars this weekend on food!! so much for the band saving me money! healthy food is expensive!! but I stocked up!! got all kinds of stuff to make some recipes for the soft food stage just lots of healthy food to have in the house so Im not tempted to eat what I shouldnt since I dont really have the restriction. After being so hungry for a week while on liquids I am just happy I can eat some food with substance! I have been walking too...a mile so far, I think it really helps with the weight loss but I havnt lost any weight all week. Im frustrated about that but Im still down 18lbs since surgery. I bought a pedometer this weekend and going to walk alot this week. My plan to get me through bandster hell is eat healthy and try to stick with what Im allowed and the half cup per meal, limit my snacking unless Im starving, drink lots of water, and walk! Iv been on Weight watchers so many times that I know I can do that until I can get a fill and get restriction. im disappointed that I already feel like this after spending so much money but at least I was prepared to know it could happen and how I was going to get through it.