Everyday I feel or see something that reminds me of why I am having this surgery I guess you could say several "A HA!" or "Wakeup" moments. Today I was at outback steakhouse with my son and husband and we had a gift card so I figured we might as well use it cause I wont be able to use it in a while, anyway, after sqeezing into the booth, which I never had a problem with until the past year, I just could not stop sweating!! I know its been 100 degrees out lately but no one else appeared to be sweating...than like I usually do I dropped food on my white shirt. I was thinking that the reason I keep dropping food is not because I am simply a messy eater but for one I eat too fast and done take the time take small portions on my fork and rush it in my mouth and two Im sqeeezed into a booth and cannot lean forward enough because of my stomach stops me...This was yet another Wakeup moment.. I never had to worry about fitting into a booth in the past so by the time I get the words out "we would prefer a booth, please", I stop and think maybe a table would be better. I dont like being as honest as I am right now about this and to be perfectly honest I erased it but than thought If I can reach out to anyone that is overweight and that goes through this, I want them to know that there are others that feel and think the same. I than typed it again. Its crazy but I have several of these types of moments everyday and make a mental note as well as track in my journel so if I have a bad day or moment with the lapband I can go back to this post and remember why I got this surgery in the first place.
So today I completed my blood work post surgery and made my grocery list for the first 2 weeks. Lots of low fat cream soups, sugar fee pudding and jello and juice and broth..gonna stock up on as much as I can. I feel better than I did yesterday after my freak out moment and cannot believe that this time next week I will be banded!!!