Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!


Happy New Year everyone!! I cannot believe I have had the band for 5 months! I have not been back to the gym since vacation and really have not been doing a good job with my eating either during this time but somehow I managed to lose another 2lbs. Im down to 252.5...only .5lbs away from my first big goal of 50lbs lost!! Im back in the gym starting this week so I know I will be down my 50 by my Jan 11 th fill. The good thing is that at least the band has helped me maintain my weight even when I dont hit the gym or eat the best. before the band I would of been pigging out this time of year and gained 5-10 lbs in these 3 weeks!! something happened today and I did something I may not have done 5 mnth ago I wanted to share...I went to a New Years day breakfast with my husband and son this morning. when I walked into the restaurant right in front of me paying was an X boyfriend of mine. I dated this guy for a couple years right before I met my husband. He was such a good looking guy and when I met him I was in my 20's and had a pretty good build I weighed about 215-220 while I was with him. I havnt seen him since we broke up so its been like 6 yrs. anyway, before surgery I would of hauled ass the other way if I saw him cause I wouldnt want him or any of my ex's to see me at 280 plus pounds...but today, even though I had no makeup on and a jogging suit on..lol..I walked straight up to him..got his attention, said hi and gave him a hug..I didnt even hesitate to do this. thats all it was...short & sweet but after it happened I was thinking about our relationship and how I was soooo into this guy but he really didnt offer me anything..nothing like my husband..and I thought why did I even stay with him for 4 yrs??? I honestly think that I had little self confidence in my 20's even though my body was much better..its really crzy what weight issues can impact on the things you do and how you feel. I think because he was so good looking that I just wanted to show that I could get this really hot guy and felt like I had to keep him. Ok, enough of Dr. Phil..lol..I was just sorda amazed how even though I didnt look my best physically that I didnt run & hide that shows me alot and how much losing 50lbs has done for me. Part of me is excited about starting a new Year especially since I am on this exciting weight loss journey but in a way Im a little depressed..sad the holidays are over, sad my vacation is over and that I really dont have anything to look forward to other than my weight loss. I am going to focus on getting to the gym and losing another 50lbs by summer!! I will make that my new goal and my new exciting "thing" to look forward too! Hope all of you had a great holiday and have a great new year!

5 comments:

  1. woooohooo!! So close to 50 lbs!
    I have wondered about the same thing you just did! I shy away from people I haven't seen in ages. I duck to another isle in the grocery store or just pretend I didn't see em. I wonder if that will change for me? Happy New Year! 2011 is going to be great!

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  2. thanks Amanda. If the only reason you duck or hide is because of yur weight than that will change!! Once i lose 100 I probalby will be leaping out in front of them..LOL....

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  3. Not sure if it is because of my weight totally or if I am not interested in small talk! Wait till I hit 50lbs and we'll see if it changes! :) Hope you are enjoying your weekend!

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  4. What a wonderfully positive thing is happening in your life - confidence! I'm thrilled for you!

    And, nothing to be kinda sad about! Start working on that bikini bod for summer! That will definately make you look forward to summer!

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  5. What a great NSV! Also, you are so close to that goal, congrats!

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