60lbs down!!!

Holy Crap! I did it! I hit the 60lb marker this week! I weighed in at 240.5! for a total weight loss of 62lbs!!! Im so excited ..cant ya tell??..lol...I hit the gym pretty hard the past couple of weeks and like I told you in my previous post I started a spin class at the gym and I really think with that along with feeling like Im at my sweet spot made it happen. Since my fill a couple weeks ago Iv lost almost 10lbs..it really came off quick. I just keep lookin forward now and cant wait to be in the 230's! I am literally gonna crap my pants when I see that scale in the teens! Its been years since Iv been down to that...2004 to be exact. Before I got married and before I had a kid! This was really a great ending to my crappy week..I lost my wedding band last weekend:( I hardly ever wear that or my engagment ring anymore since they are both too big but I wore my wedding band one day to get a spray tan and left the ring in the room..I never even realized it was gone until a few days letter and remembered that I had left it there.. I immediatly called the tanning salon and it was no where to be found. I feel pretty sure someone took it and didnt turn it in but I still searched and searched for it..even crawling around the floor the room I was in. I was so bummed!!! I am a big sentimental person and that ring meant alot to me as all you married people know. I cried for 2 days thinking about it...but I accepted the fact that It probably would never get it back but was thankful I still had my engagment ring. My husband surprised me yesterday though and had gotten me another one and even a better one:) AND to top it off my ring size went down 2 whole sizes when I got measured to get the ring sized! Bitter sweet:) Lets see what other NSV's did I have? Well my husband bought a motorcyle in the fall and I swore I wouldn't ride it till I loset 50lbs..I didnt want to feel like this huge blob on the back..well we rode yesterday all day and it felt great...I could get on and off without any problems..even lifting my leg the whole way over the back seat rest..I had bought a new, cute jacket and helmet with little rhinestones stars all over it..lol..I will post some pics:) Anyway..Im feeling pretty good......Only negative so far is that I did have a PB episode today. Im not sure what happened but I think it was a prescription motrin I took..I have a hard time with horse pills now...I took it and it seem to go down ok but than I drank some protein shake and I was immediatly stuck...pretty bad too...I felt like I couldnt even catch my breath..I was driving on the highway and had to pull off and and bring it up...immediate relief but I hate when that happens!! My mom was with me too and the first time she really saw me like that or see how the band can affect me..so she thought it was just awful that it can cause me to be sick..I explained to her its only the 3rd time its happened to me but she was like that cannot be good for you and how can you deal with that..blah blah..she was just concerned but I tried to explain things to her and how it all works....Im sure my whole family will know by Monday and my sisters will be calling me thinking that I am doing things I shouldnt be doing. Hopefully the weight loss keeps coming!!! I will keep you posted!

So glad I got Lapband!

Hey all! Time flies! I realized its been a several days since I posted....Well since my last fill Iv been doing good.. I started back on solid foods on day 2 after my fill and I am still having more stuck episodes than I ever have and it does get pretty annoying at times cause I just want to eat sometimes without worrying about eating so slow and with such small bites. Now most breads, french fries and some meat are almost impossible for me to eat. Actually alot of things get stuck now more easy...I havnt had any sick episodes since this fill but I have been trying to be careful not to over do it. I do know most of the time its self induced though...now with this fill I REALLY have to eat very slow and small bites and that is pretty hard to do ALL the time...especially when your starving. I do still sometims lean toward foods that go down without a problem and usually they are bad for you foods but like I said, now I could get stuck on pretty much anything but soup right now if I am not being carful. I picked up RPM (spinning) class at the gym and LOVE IT! I never thought Id say that about exercise! but I really do...I work out so hard in that class and its pretty intense...I sweat a ton but always feel good after taking it. The gym has become my outlet and my hobby. I had a tough couple weeks where I was feeling sorry for myself and tired of going and working out but that passed and I just am so happy that I started and stuck with the gym for almost 7months now! And I am so happy that I got lapband, overall its worked really well for me and I would have NEVER lost almost 60lbs without it. Its been so much more work than I ever expected but I have no regrets, even if Im paying that 15 grand off for the next 4 years:) I just hope that I can lose another 60!! Of course im never satisifed with how my body looks but I can see major difference, especially in my legs. I am up to taking body pump, which is a weight class 2x a week and cardio class be it spin or body combat 2x a week. Some weeks I go a day more and some weeks a day less but If I do at least 4x a week the weight continues to come off. As soon as I let off the working out and eat junk I move up a pound or 2. Saturday is my wiegh in and I am at 243.5 for a total weight loss of 59.5 lbs:) the 230's are right around the corner and I am only a pound away from losing 60lbs!! That really is exciting for me when I stop and think about it. I can honestly say that I feel really proud of myself and that I have accomplished this. This is the first time I really have felt that since getting surgery. My husband has been so supportive and not complaining (like he did at first) that I am spending more time at the gym..he did bring home some donuts last week AND I came home to fried chicken another day..lol...but I forgave him cause I can't expect him an my son to never eat things I can't right??

I am also getting so many compliments at work too...I actually had a guy stop me in the hall and say..are you losing weight?? I said yes I am and he said "you look skinny" Me skinny?? of course I couldnt just say thank you and leave it so I said skinny? i dont think so but thanks for noticing. LOL...Im certaintly not skinny but the fact he stopped me to say that especially a guy, and we know how guys dont normally notice change like that.. those compliments keep me motivated and make me so happy I made it to this point and down over 50lbs and not back just starting...Its easier to keep going when you see, feel and hear the results every day!...so I am in my happy place right now and I hope it continues..Im trying to keep myself surrounded by people who care about me and my journey and support me no matter what...:) I will keep you posted especially when I hit the 60lb marker and am in the 230's!!!

Another CC!

I had my fill appointment today. The doctor put in another cc to bring me up to 9cc 's total. Its been a little over 6 weeks since my last fill on Jan. 11th. I lost 5.5lbs since Jan 11th and now Im at a total of 56lbs and today was my 7 month bandiversary!! I was actually surprised I managed to pull off 5lbs considering Iv been frustrated with my weight loss in the past month. Iv been really hitting the gym this week though. Started spin & RPM class at the gym. Im being told that will really LEAN me out and I think my body needed "shocked" a little and I needed to change up my normal gym routine. Im actually pretty happy with my appointment today. Iv been on liquids only today so not sure how this fill will feel but I do feel a little different in my chest just drinking ...I hope that is just from the swelling from the fill and not a warning that this might be too much. Iv felt really motivated this week I think because Im starting to realize that summer is right around the corner and I really want to hit that 100lb marker for my 1 year anniversary..not sure if that is realistic considering its only 5 months away but I think I can at least get in another 30lbs if I work hard. I cannot believe I am 4 lbs away from losing 60lbs!! CRAZY!!! and I cant believe Its been 7 months since I had this surgery! time truly does fly! My body is coming together ok, still a little nervous about my stomach area...still have some hanging on my bottom stomach but I am really just hoping that it all comes together as I lose weight and tone up..but dont have a good feeling about it..I may see a tummy tuck in my future...my inner thighs still could use some work but Iv lost so much in my legs, hips and thighs..my butt is pretty much gone...much to my husbands disappointment:( but I still have that damn meaty stomach!! all and all I feel pretty good..you know how it is, it never is enough you always want more..more weight loss, better figure, flatter stomach...Im not sure if I even lost 100lbs if I will be happy with the way I look...really is sad when you think about it*sigh* I do get alot of compliments and people really notice my weight loss now. Im just gonna keep at this and continue to take it day by day:)

UGH!

Hey everyone...sorry I havn't posted in a while..I just really havnt had any great news or new info and been kinda busy. I basically have been just chuggin along...Havn't really lost anymore weight..I have managed to stay in the 240's this past week but the scale is teetering between 245 -248...it changes weekly. Iv beeen having a tough time trying to figure out if I should get another fill or not. I moved my appointment up to March 1st about 4 weeks sooner than scheduled because I am having such a hard time losing weight now. I can tell I am at my 6 month marker because just like when I dieted pre-band I am starting to struggle mentally and strugglin with getting to the gym. I just dont feel like going..I am making myself go still but I find that I start skipping here and there plus I am not sticking to my eating and the band rules in the past couple weeks. I still can eat a good bit of food about 2 cups at a meal. I am still getting stuck and find myself leaning toward "easier" foods because im tired of that feeling. I actually got pretty sick tonight and vomited for the 2nd time since having surgery. this was pretty bad though not like the first time. I didnt think I was going to stop...very weird. I am pretty sure its because I was eating too fast and eating more than I should. I am still learning how to eat and you would think after 6 months I would begin to have this down..but its a constant battle with my mind and my old habits, habits I just can't seem to break.....the fast eating, big bites...eating crap I shouldnt...eating after Im full...UGH!! I realize now more than ever that this is such a mind thing for me and that even having the surgery doesnt change who I am and how I deal with food!! I know I won't quit or give up but its such a an up and down ride! one week Im on point and the next Im hitting a downward spriral! I am going to talk to the dr. on Monday and hopefully he can help make the decision if he feels I need a fill or if I just need to change my habits and get back in the game! I will keep you all posted!!

Fill Please!!

I sucked it up and called my doctor today to move my fill up...I have lost NO weight since my fill on Jan 11th. I am holding steady at 250...I have been teeter tottering to 249 and back for 3 weeks now , my short lived 240 excitement was just that...short lived. My appetite is increasing and I can eat a larger portion size now before I even begin to fill full. I dont even feel like I had another fill last month! I still am having stuck episodes though with wings, chips and even on salmon. I have to admit I have not been eating as great since the week I was sick but you would think with the band you dont have to be sooo anal every day all the time!! I do find myself leaning toward easier foods like mashed potatoes and cookies..lol..That is frustrating to me..I find that if I dont hit the gym at least 3x per week and watch what I eat everyday, I dont lose anything....I could accept that when I dieted but with the band I thought it would be..how do I say it? EASIER!!! I know that I probably wouldnt of lost 50lbs without it especially this fast but when you are on the low end of the process its hard to think of the good stuff. I want to lose so much more weight and of course I want it like yesterday! but by june would work:)..Is that too much to ask?...I hate the idea that I have hit a stand still for a month now...that is such wasted time in my eyes...that could be another 8lbs! At my last visit the doctor said he didnt want to see me back for 3 months...that put me at April 19th. There is no way in hell I am gonna wait that long for another fill...when I called I was lucky that they got me in March 1st. I just want to get to my sweet spot where I really am full after half of a cup. right now Im still almost 2 cups until I feel full and satisfied. I figure worse case I have to just struggle through and try to do my best for another 3 weeks, it sure is better than 2.5 months! I alreay have 8cc's in the band and it only goes up to 11..Im a little nervous that Im so close and only 6 months out! Oh yea..speaking of 6 months..I completly forgot to recongnize my 6 monh bandiversary! Happy friggin anniversary to me!!! lol...I would of preferred to bring it in another 10lbs down but I guess I cant have it all!!

Sick does not equal zero appetite!

Been sick all week with strep throat and a sinus infection....started Monday and I am just now starting to feel better. Yet another week set back for my weight loss! I am not one of those lucky people who lose their appetite when sick...I ended up working from home wed & thursday. Alone all day with my kitchen is not a good thing. I grazed all day like a cow in a big, green pasture. when I am sick I eat...I crave comfort food and sweets..not even a throat on fire kept me from eating. I was too sick to get to the gym as well so this whole week went to hell in a hand basket!! Im so glad Im starting to feel better today..Im giving myself one more day of rest than Im hitting the gym again. I havnt weighed myself so I am hoping I didnt gain anything this week! Its weird but I hate wasting time...every day is a day I could be losing more weight and getting my body in better shape..a week "off" is a huge set back and when you have had a few of them it really adds up...I hate taking a month to lose a couple pounds and Im scared the weight loss is really going to start slowing down now. I am finding myself leaning toward "easy" food or some call them sliders. ..when I eat "healthy" foods like salad or chicken breasts I have a much harder time eating them and they go down hard and I start getting a stuck feeling but I can woof down chocolate cookies back to back and no issues at all! Sometimes I just get tired of being so careful eating and having to eat so slow and small bites that I just want to be able to eat "normal" again...I guess I kinda miss it and miss the way I used to be able to eat. No regrets just miss it sometimes:)

Slipped up in more ways than one!!

Had my weekly weigh in this morning and I am back up to 251! I barly got to enjoy the 240's Im not sure what happened, if its my period or just the fact that I didnt eat well this week. It might be a combination of both. It was not a good week..I craved sweets and junk food. I didnt go completely crazy but I did have a chic Filet milkshake not once by twice..they are so friggin good! and I just overall didnt eat very healthy..I have pretty good restriction but I can "eat around" that..I found myself grazing more this week and eating bigger portion sizes. I did still go to the gym and worked out pretty hard earlier in the week but really slacked off at the end of the week. I was a little upset after weighing in this morning but I figured it was my fault so I needed to buck up and not feel sorry for myself and just do better. To cheer myself up I went to do a little shopping today..I had a coupon at old navy and a gift card..I racked up in there! they had a huge clearance section and I bought a ton of spring tops and tee's. I also bought my pregnant sister some maternity stuff and my husband a few things..I spent less than a hundred and brought home 3 huge bags full of clothes. Before surgery I couldnt even get into their size 20 jeans and I was wearing their XXL tops. Today I simply got all XL tops and a couple Large and was able to fit into size 16 jeans!! I didn't buy any but I tried several on. The size 18's that I bought a few months ago are getting too big now and I have to wear a belt with them. I decided to wait a little longer to buy more jeans since I can techincally still wear the 18's. That did make me feel better but I am still upset when I don't do well and stray off the lapband path. I really want to lose another 20-30 lbs my summer and I can't afford a bad week if I want to hit that goal. Im definitly hitting the gym tomorrow and gonna go to the grocery store and get lots of healthy dinner and lunch food. I find that the more i eat out at work and not pack is when I stray the most and get the most tempted. I do have a funny story..........so picture this..Im in the mall and Iv got these 3 big shopping bags full of clothes...another store bag and my purse...im literally strugglin to hold it all as Im walking back to the door to the parking lot...I am wearing these flat ankle high boots with skinny jeans (yes, skinny jeans, whod a thunk?) and all the sudden my boot slips on the floor and i hit the ground...2 of my big bags bust and clothes go everywhere...there I am laying on the floor in the middle of the mall with clothes just everywhere around me!!!..LMAO...I could not even bare to look up..I quickly gathered the clothes up and stuffed them into the other bags, picked my butt off the floor and hauled ass to the door...I have never been so embarrassed in my life!! after I got out the mall I could breath again but than I thought...not one damn person even helped me or asked if I was ok or anything!! If I saw a woman do that I wouldnt of ran up and helped her gather her things at the very least! Needless to say my shopping trip was officially over..lol..I took that as a sign to stop while I was ahead. So hopefully next week I can say that I am back in the 240's again...I sure am gonna try my best!!