Wednesday, February 23, 2011

UGH!

Hey everyone...sorry I havn't posted in a while..I just really havnt had any great news or new info and been kinda busy. I basically have been just chuggin along...Havn't really lost anymore weight..I have managed to stay in the 240's this past week but the scale is teetering between 245 -248...it changes weekly. Iv beeen having a tough time trying to figure out if I should get another fill or not. I moved my appointment up to March 1st about 4 weeks sooner than scheduled because I am having such a hard time losing weight now. I can tell I am at my 6 month marker because just like when I dieted pre-band I am starting to struggle mentally and strugglin with getting to the gym. I just dont feel like going..I am making myself go still but I find that I start skipping here and there plus I am not sticking to my eating and the band rules in the past couple weeks. I still can eat a good bit of food about 2 cups at a meal. I am still getting stuck and find myself leaning toward "easier" foods because im tired of that feeling. I actually got pretty sick tonight and vomited for the 2nd time since having surgery. this was pretty bad though not like the first time. I didnt think I was going to stop...very weird. I am pretty sure its because I was eating too fast and eating more than I should. I am still learning how to eat and you would think after 6 months I would begin to have this down..but its a constant battle with my mind and my old habits, habits I just can't seem to break.....the fast eating, big bites...eating crap I shouldnt...eating after Im full...UGH!! I realize now more than ever that this is such a mind thing for me and that even having the surgery doesnt change who I am and how I deal with food!! I know I won't quit or give up but its such a an up and down ride! one week Im on point and the next Im hitting a downward spriral! I am going to talk to the dr. on Monday and hopefully he can help make the decision if he feels I need a fill or if I just need to change my habits and get back in the game! I will keep you all posted!!

4 comments:

  1. Oh my, this really hit home for me. I am newly banded in January but I feel like I am still dealing with old bad habits with food. I believe we will have to fight the food battles for the rest of our lives unfortunately. Keep on chugging along, take it one day at a time, every day is a new day and you'll get there in your own time. :)

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  2. I know what you're going through and think it's probably totally normal. I've read a lot of blogs and most people report something similar. Rad my current post about 'food issues', it's tough to break old habits and accept this new banded life. At least you're recognizing it and asking for help. Good luck!

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  3. I'm 13 months out and STILL retraining my brain. It's really about that...because the world didn't stop eating bad food, the skinny bishes are still slamming down food I want in front of my face, etc. It's a daily struggle for all of us, and all we can do is stick to what we know will make us healthier! You can do it :)

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  4. Glad to hear from you again. I agree that it is going to be a forever battle on some of our mental issues. Good luck!

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